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Chetna Shukla, India
Classical, single blind trial
no placebo given
Remedy unknown to 3 of 4 provers
PHARMACY OF REMEDY IN PROVING
prepared by prover No. one according to Hahnemann
Description of the substance
A homeopathic drug proving- now termed a homeopathic pathogenetic trial- of LENTINULA EDODES, the Shiitake mushroom
Eine homöopathische Arzneimittelprüfung von LENTINULA EDODES, dem Shiitake Pilz
THE INDIVIDUALIZING EXAMINATION OF SHIITAKE
By Chetna N Shukla E mail: email@example.com
LENTINULA EDODES, Lent-e.
Latin name: Lentinula edodes.
Synonym: Lentinus edodes.
Common names: Shiitake. Oak Mushroom. Golden Oaks.
* Tough, pliant, as old leather.
* Prefers forest shade where cold water is nearby.
* Growth stimulated by vibration.
* Manganese and zinc.
* Lowers level of total cholesterol.
* Shiitake dermatitis [flagellate skin lesions], resembling effects of self-flagellation.
* Dermatitis < sunlight.
*Cap umbrella-shaped, dark reddish brown when young, becoming lighter with age.
* Cap has fine white threadlike tufts or scales, especially toward the edges.
* The dried cap becomes cracked, taking on the appearance of old leather.
* Stalk short and very tough (name from lentus, tough or pliant) centrally attached to cap.
*Gills off-white; spores pure white.
*Spring and fall.
*Saprophytic (wood decomposer); on dead or dying deciduous trees (oak, maple, alder, chestnut, beech).
* Prefers forest shade where cold water is nearby.
The family Tricholomataceae contains many edible species, such as Pleurotus ostreatus (oyster mushroom), Tricholoma flavovirens (man-on-horseback), Armillariella mellea (honey mushroom), Armillaria ponderosa (matsutake), Marasmius oreades (fairy ring mushroom), Clitocybe nuda (blewit), and Lentinula edodes.
* Shiitake has been bandied about in different genera; it has been called Cortinellus edodes, Cortinellus shiitake, Armillaria shiitake, and Tricholomopsis edodes, but more recently it has been regarded as a Lentinula. The name shii applies to an evergreen tree, Castanopsis cuspidata, on which it grows; take means mushroom. Shiitake, named Xiang-gu in China, is widely used in oriental cuisine and said to be the third most popular culinary mushroom in the world (after the white button mushroom, Agaricus bisporus, and the oyster mushroom). For 2,000 years the Japanese and Chinese have cultivated it by boring holes in recently cut logs of oak, hornbeam or chestnut, soaked in water, and
inoculating them with pieces of wood decayed by the fungus. The logs are hammered or vibrated from time to time to stimulate mycelial growth, a practice known since the 14th century, when logs were beaten with a club to "wake up" the fungus. After between 6 to 18 months the fruiting bodies appear.
*Shiitake is high in potassium, iron, copper, niacin, vitamins A and C, and B vitamins - B1 [thiamine], B2 [riboflavin], B12. In sun-dried form, it contains vitamin D. Four of five mushrooms irradiated with sunlight equal the daily recommended allowance of 400 international units of vitamin D.(Among other of the higher fungi that have been found to contain vitamin D are Agaricus campestris, Gyromitra esculenta, Boletus edulis and Cantharellus ciboria.) The stem is rich in manganese and zinc.
* In traditional Chinese medicine, shiitake is used to treat high cholesterol, atherosclerosis, colds, and flu.
Contemporary cases of colds being "cured" when shiitake is taken are reportedly numerous in Japan. According to the late Kisaku Mori, former head of the Mushroom Research Institute of Japan, shiitake was regarded as a cure for colds during the Ming dynasty some six hundred years ago. But it wasn’t until the 1960s that medical researchers began to ask why. As early as 1966, Kenneth W. Cochran and colleagues at the University of Michigan at Ann Arbor discovered that shiitake could produce a highly significant level of protection against a type A influenza. Type A flu viruses are the ones that create major outbreaks and can become epidemic and even pandemic, spreading from continent to continent. With the injection of a "crude" mushroom extract, the average number of lung lesions in mice in the wake of flu infection decreased by 46%. The clinically proven anti-influenza drug amantadine hydrochloride produced a comparable 40 percent score. Later evidence showed the anti-influenza action could partly be attributable to shiitake¹s spores. Made up into a water extract, the spores proved more active than the mushroom. Besides the stem and cap, in smaller amounts, the particle-sized spores also showed up in the mycelium, even after heat treatment to 33 degrees C (91 degrees F.). This research was taken deeper when the active part of the spores was isolated and it was found that they held, of all things, "virus-like particles" similar in structure to an influenza virus. The discovery that these particles had induced the body’s own production of interferon - a powerful protein component of the immune system that literally interferes with viral reproduction - and in amounts sufficient to protect against influenza, inspired much more intensive research. When extractives from the virus-like particles consisting of double-stranded RNA were used, anti-tumor effects were found as well. The effect was stronger than that of an interferon-inducing drug known today as Ampligen (polyribonucleotide), but the spore products were never developed into a drug, probably because the amount of interferon induced by Ampligen
is four times that of the mushroom RNA.
* Reproducible effects of shiitake in lowering the level of total cholesterol have been demonstrated.
*The use of a broth of shiitake stems as a cure for liver ailments and diabetes by the ancient Chinese is probably attributable to the high zinc content of the stems. Among the functions of zinc in the human body are insulin activity and maintaining healthy liver function.
*Japanese and Chinese researchers claim that lentinan, a polysaccharide isolated from the shiitake mushroom, is helpful in the treatment of cancer, heart disease, high blood pressure, and diabetes. Modifying the activity of the immune system, lentinan has been used successfully to treat stomach cancers. Another well-studied preparation with proven pharmacological effects is LEM, Lentinula edodes mycelium, which is harvested before the cap and stem grow. In Japan, lentinan is classified as a drug, whereas LEM is considered a food supplement.
*Laboratory tests seem to point to an important role of the adrenal-pituitary axis and central-peripheral nervous system, including serotonin, 5HT, histamine, and catecholamines in lentinan’s antitumour activity (Maeda et al, 1974).
* In Japan, lentinan is often used to help support immune function in cancer patients during chemotherapy (for instance cyclophosphamide), often leading to increased survival times. It is well known that such chemotherapeutic agents can lead to severe immune suppression.
* Lentinan does not attack cancer cells directly, but produces its antitumour effect by activating different immune responses in the host. This activation was at first thought to occur only in immune-compromised animals, but not in healthy animals and was called an immunorestorative agent, but recent work has uncovered a true immunopotentiating effect, by showing a clearly augmenting effect on the proliferation of peripheral mononuclear cells from healthy human donors, which is also supported by animal studies
* Lentinan works through both humoral and cell-mediated immune mechanisms to support host defense against various cancers, bacteria (tuberculosis), viruses (such as the AIDS virus), and parasites (Aoki, 1984; Mizuno et al, 1992).
*Lentinan may also be useful in clinical practice for strengthening immune and endocrine functions of elderly people and people who are run-down from overwork, as well as the prevention of cancer in high-risk individuals, both orally and by injection (Aoki, 1984). In Japan, in the treatment of low natural killer cell syndrome [LNKS], a disease that appears to be identical to chronic fatigue syndrome in the West, lentinan was successful in reversing the symptoms of remittent fever, persisting fatigue, and low NK
cell activity (Aoki et al, 1987). (Hobbs 1995)
*No toxic effects have been reported, only "minor" side effects or allergic reactions (due to its histamine-sensitizing properties) including diarrhea and "numerous cases of shiitake dermatitis." "In a phase II trial, only 17 of 185 patients with advanced cancer had similar transitory side effects. Skin eruptions were noted in 7 cases, mild oppression on the chest, 6 cases, and mild liver dysfunction, 4 cases. In a follow-up phase III trial by the same researchers, 15 out of 275 patients experienced nausea and vomiting (2), heaviness in the chest (4), heat sensation (2), and one case each of face flushing, a rise in blood pressure, and heaviness in the head." [Hobbs]
*People taking anticoagulant medicines are advised against consuming Shiitake beyond occasional use in foods since the mushroom has been reported to hinder blood coagulation.
* Shitake dermatitis is characterised by flagellate skin lesions, so called because they resemble the effects of self-flagellation in medieval people. The lesions consist of edematous, erythematous streaks occurring in a centripetal distribution over the trunk and proximal extremities and have alternatively been described as Œlinear streaks and Œzebra-like strope eruption. Photosensitive skin lesions on exposed areas are an accompanying factor. Analysis of the case histories of 94 Japanese patients with shiitake
dermatitis has shown that 47% also developed dermatitis on the skin exposed to sunlight. It has been observed, in addition, that flagellate dermatitis is not rare as a drug eruption following bleomycin therapy. (Bleomycin is an antibiotic, derived from Streptomyces verticillus, used in the treatment of cancers. A side effect of bleomycin is )
*The shiitake is a forest fungus that prefers shady places. It inhabits cool temperate regions. The logs on which it is cultivated are left in shady parts of the forest or shaded forest conditions are artificially simulated. Its contents, particularly the lentinan, decrease markedly at temperatures higher than 20o C. In this context it is striking that the dermatitis evoked by eating shiitake, in sensitive persons, is aggravated by exposure to sunlight.
THE DYNAMIZATION OF THE SHIITAKE…
“Each of these medicines must be taken in a perfectly simple, unadulterated form; the indigenous plants in the form of freshly expressed juice mixed with a little alcohol to prevent it spoiling; exotic* vegetable substances, however in the form of powder, or tincture prepared with alcohol when they were in the fresh state, and afterwards mingled with a certain proportion of water…”
The Shiitake mushroom falls in the category of being exotic vegetable as it is introduced
from another country. The mushroom was only available in its dry form. One intact mushroom was chosen from the packet and soaked in 10 ml alcohol for 6 hours, crushed and filtered to give the mother tincture.
To 0.1 ml of the tincture was added 9.9 ml of alcohol. This was than given 10 succussions using the Organon as a hard surface. The further potencies, till the 30th, were made using Korsakoff’s method.
The method of the individualizing examination…
Potency selected: 30th.
Healthy provers (§126)
There are no full proof ways to find out what was a ‘good state of health’. But over years I learnt the Organon way to find this out through one question that I would ask the provers that would get invited…
“Do you feel that your body and mind are in what is for you a good state of health in this given time?”
The deciding that whether the participant was fit enough/in a good state of health to participate in the individualizing examination was decided by none other than that all wise preserver of health flowing through them.
Choice of provers (§121)
The qualities of a prover- the subjects of experiment should be persons fee form disease, and who are delicate (soft, tender; easily injured, becoming ill easily; needing great care; able to appreciate or indicate very small changes of differences), irritable (cause discomfort to part of body), and sensitive (quickly or easily receiving impressions).
I invite persons whom I have known and feel have these qualities (from previous interactions during provings) and I wait for the provers to get attracted to the medicine to be individualized, in other words I wait for the medicine to chose its own provers; that is I wait for the ones destined to do this individualizing examination. In this experiment I invited some and others I waited to get attracted (Prover 3 and 4 got attracted) and 1 and 2 were invited. (You can make what you want to of the difference in the experiences between the invitees and the attracte-es!) Prover 5 not mentioned was also invited but she was not able to participate although she wished too because of some familial engagements.
It benefits to know the disposition (medicine that benefited him/her as constitutional) of the provers beforehand. One is we know what to filter out of the narrated proving experience that does not belong to the medicine being examined (after establishing the Internal Consistency) and secondly in case of ‘severe’ suffering on the part of the prover, the constitutional medicine helps to alleviate the suffering.
Number of provers (§135)
This examination has one male and three female provers. The number seems limited. But the experience is not! This examination anyways does not give the whole of the elements of disease the Shiitake is able to produce. This is but one ‘facet’, one ‘matrix’. Because this can be brought to anything like completeness by numerous observations when the provers can notice little of a novel character from its action, and almost always the same symptoms as had been already observed by others.
Single dose (§131 and 132)
In §131 cautioning us against repeated repetition of the medicine in ever increasing doses during a proving, Hahnemann says that…
“ If however, in order to ascertain anything at all, the same medicine be given to the same person to test for several successive days in ever increasing doses, we thereby learn, no doubt, the various morbid states, this medicine is capable of producing in a general manner, but we do not ascertain their order of succession (sequence, that is so important) and the subsequent dose often removes, curatively, some one or the other of the symptoms developed by the previous dose”
It is continued in §132…
“But when the object is, without reference to the sequential order of the phenomenon and the duration of the action of the drug, only to ascertain the symptoms themselves, especially those of a weak medicinal substance, in that case the preferable course to pursue is to give it (the medicine to be proved) for several successive days, increasing the dose every day. In this manner the action of an unknown medicine, even of the mildest nature, will be revealed, especially if tested on sensitive persons”
Therefore this (and all the others too) examination is the effect of a single dose. This gives us the sequential order of the whole phenomenon and we avoid all possibility of losing symptoms brought on by the first dose that would (have) be(en) curatively removed by the action of the next dose.
Duration of action of Shiitake (§130)
The duration of action of a drug can only be ascertained by a comparison of several experiments. But the duration of this particular one was from 15th day of June to 30th day of July.
Recording of the experience (§140)
And what is noted down here as authentic information (however must be) is chiefly the voluntary narration (given in the sequence of narration in his/her own expressions) of the persons who made the experiment. Everything ascertained with same caution as Hahnemann has counseled in is § 84-99 for the investigation of the phenomenon and for tracing the picture of natural disease.
Scheduling of the meetings §98, 83
The patience (endurance trouble, inconvenience, to deal with troubles calmly if any) was to the changes in the state of disposition of the prover and in the situational dynamics therefore of the prover with and around his/her surroundings. There were no strict timings of the meetings. The meetings were scheduled according to mutual adjustments between the conductor and the prover. And while conducting the inquiry the qualities of tact, circumspection with that of being unprejudiced (not to expect a known or fixed image of the medicine under examination), with sound senses, attention in observing (for the so called “accidents” too-the unforeseen events, events by chance as mentioned in §138) and fidelity in tracing the picture of the disease are to be brought to the forefront.
What potency to use?
This is a controversial question. But I can give you my experiences here. I can give you ‘mine’ as I have first hand experiences of my experiences. In the Hippocampus proving the most interesting of all for me) each prover potentized a certain range of potencies of the substance to be examined-the Seahorse without orally consuming it. And what I had was a most beautiful picture sketched out of the Seahorse!
The crow egg proving I did in the 12C (I don’t know why?), the mango (Mangifera Indica) I did in the 30 and Dr Prakash Vakil did it the way mentioned in the Organon. In § 123 Hahnemann writes regarding the proving of…
“(T)he indigenous (mango is to India) plants in the form of freshly expressed juice, mixed with a little alcohol to prevent it spoiling”
Is there a possibility that each different potency will exhibit different set of symptoms?
Is it that every remedy will exhibit similar set of symptoms but in different dynamicity?
I think the latter is more applicable. Because potency is nothing but the numerical power given to the dynamic power aroused through the process of Potentizations. The potency cannot influence the disposition of the substance but it can (if at all) only influence the dynamicity of (the way) the disposition presented.
Why do a proving?
(Also read footnote 103 to § 141.)
I would like to share the Bryonia experience that I had to drive home my point. I had this dream…
* I see myself telling my brother and my mother that they should fill up the water storage tank full, and also fill up all possible vessels with water, as there is a water shortage. Once all the containers are filled to the brim I tell all my family members to drink as much as they can even if they were not thirsty in that moment-so that the body requirement for water is met with. I see all of us drinking large jugs of water and feeling satisfied that now we won’t need it for a long interval. Even if we are thirsty, which is just a feeling, our water hydration of the body has been maintained.”
This dream helped me ‘see’ the mind-body connection of the fragmented picture of Bryonia available to all of us. Most of the fragments (rubrics) are mere links of some lost unity called Bryonia; and the proving thus united me to this whole.”
This made me a ‘seer’!
Let me quote a Sufi story of Mullah Nasruddin (a Sufi saint). He lost his donkey-his only wealth. He searched for him but without success. Nasruddin was asked to accept the fact that he was lost. But he said he would like to make a last attempt. He stood still and closed his eyes. Then he bent and started walking on all fours. He walked around the house, the garden, and finally reached a large pit into which his donkey had fallen. His friends were surprised and asked him what his trick was.
Nasruddin said, “I thought if a man cannot find a donkey, then the key to finding it is not with him; to find the donkey I have to become like a donkey. So when I began to feel like a donkey, I thought if I was a donkey looking for a donkey where would I look? As soon as I thought that way, I went down on my hands and knees, and started walking like a donkey. I do not know how I found the place, but when I opened my eyes, I saw I had reached the pit-and there was my donkey!”
The beauty of a proving is we need not go on all our fours to identify/find the donkey.
What happens after a proving can be best presented thus…
In a proving for every outwardly energy configuration is created an inward energy configuration within our consciousness that is contained in their memory. And when the prover comes in contact with a similar energy configuration in the outside s/he is automatically attuned to that energy configuration. S/he is already receptive to it.
I have since than been able to identify without much effort the disposition of all those substances (my earthly co-habitants) that I have had the cosmic chance to experience in my being.
I would like to put it thus, “You identify best what you have experienced the most!”
Suffering thus… makes one serve better!
(She is a homoeopath, 35 years. Having participated already in a few provings. Her constitution is not known.)
She was the one who prepared the medicine on 11th day of June 2004
While I was preparing the medicine I moved my neck to look for something in the left and it clicked. After that I have a pain in the neck-it seems to be starting from the base of the skull and the occipital prominence. The platysma muscles got stiff. Every time I moved my neck to the left it clicked. The pain also seems to be going to the vertex. And every movement is painful and heavy. The eyes started to burn, that was better washing with tap water. For a while to relieve this stiffness I tried sleeping in the Jesus position (straight on the back with arms stretched), but it didn’t help much-the relief lasted only till I stayed in this position. While sitting up from this position I felt the head very heavy on the shoulders. It was as if it was an effort to lift it. It was as if the weight of the head was more than I could carry. I was conscious that I was carrying my head on my shoulders.
It was already shower time so I went for a shower. The pain continued till I slept. No dreams in the night.
When I woke up in the morning I had a feeling as if I had slept the whole night in the right lateral position. I did not have the neck pain and cracking. But in the morning I felt as if time was moving slowly. Saw patients continuously from 10a.m. to 4 noons without feeling hungry! And in the sun I walked empty stomach without feeling weak. I ate my lunch at 5 p.m. and I didn’t feel sleepy after lunch. At 7 I started to feel the burning in the eyes again. There was no head heaviness and neck pain. I realized that my skin of the face on the cheeks was getting dry and peeling-the way it peels in winter or after exposure to strong sun. I had to apply some cream as it felt very dry.
I felt none of the symptoms I felt in the last two days. But in the afternoon I realized that I developed a painful callosity on the undersurface of the great toe of the left foot. It was tender and painful even on soft touch. I had to walk with my great toe extended up as even the touch of the footwear caused a knife like pain. In the night at bedtime I applied some cream.
Sunday, I woke up very late. It was a nice day. No dreams during the night. I went shopping for myself and to my surprise I bought floaters that were of the design for men. I liked them and felt I needed them for the trip to the Himalayas. In the evening as usual our family was together and we had a nice time.
In the morning I took the dose with the first prover who came to collect the dose. The clinic was like usual. I came home had lunch. I did not feel like having the mango today. I lay down in bed in the afternoon and I felt a shortness of breath as if I would get an attack of asthma. I felt as if something was stuck in the throat and felt tightness in the chest over the sternal region. A burning sensation at the throat pit with a lump feeling. This vanished as I sat up. In the evening I wore the floaters to get used to them before wearing them on the trek. I didn’t like the look of them-they looked very huge and manly to me today! But they were very comfortable. Than I told myself “we have to set trends, whatever we wear will be fashion for us!” after this I could walk comfortably without any embarrassment on the streets. The callosity had vanished.
I was woken up by the telephone ring at 8 but with the memory of the dream that I had in the night.
Dream* the first sequence is that I am on the steps of a temple high up on a rocky hill with barren land surrounding it. I see a couple in the scooter with a sidecar in light pink clothes. Their clothes were flying in the air and with the wind and I had a feeling that they were searching for me. But I did not want to meet them; I was trying to avoid them, as I did not feel like talking to them. Any ways they could not see me as I was up on the steps. The scene than changes, I see me shopping in the temple corridors. There were on sale two skulls of hyenas, some musical instruments and other things. I go to have a look at these skulls. On closer look I realize that one of the skulls is of the dog and it has been manipulated to look like that of the hyena. I tell the shopkeeper-a lady- that the skull is manipulated. She says if you want two than she can get it in some days as one of the hyenas in the forest is dying so she can get it for me!
There were no feeling attached to the dream sequence in the dream. But on waking up I felt very different. Although there were no feelings attached it was weird for me to dream like this.
It was raining heavily and I felt like not going to work but I did go. Clinic was as usual. In the afternoon I slept from 4 to 7 (unusual). When I had cramps in the lower abdomen I realized that my menses that were due for the 10th got delayed, I also did not have the breast heaviness that I have been getting before menses since sometime.
In the night I felt the same suffocating feeling in the throat as if I would get asthma.
I observe a fast every Tuesday. Nothing unusual happened in this day. I had promised to give these extra kilos of mushroom to a friend. But I called him and said that my mother would like to try them as they have anti-cholesterol properties (I read from the notes that you have sent to me. They also have anti tumor properties and my mom has duct cell carcinoma of the breast.)
A dreamless night. Woke up with prayers for my mother “god heal her, help her heal herself”. In lunch she served me the shiitake mushroom and I hated the smell of it. I could not gather any courage to put them in my mouth. My mother and the rest of my family ate them gladly, but I could not.
I saw that I have developed blepharitis on my upper eyelids. The skin of the cheeks got clear.
My family and I noticed that I have developed a funny habit in the last few days. For any decision I say let us throw chits. I told her that we will decide while on the pilgrim by throwing two chits labeled ‘to go’ and ‘not to go’ at the foot of the lord and than you chose one. I will follow accordingly! They laughed at me and said this was very funny of me. I was not able to take the step. All this while I was sure I will not go and now I wanted my destiny to be decided by a piece of paper. The feeling behind this was that ‘God would be deciding through my mother’, secondly ‘I had no responsibility of taking the decision’ and this ‘would free me of the guilt I would have otherwise had if I had to take this decision’.
Today was the second day of menses and I had pain and cramps with rectal tenesmus. Each time I got the cramp I had to crap (evacuate), the stools were crumbling. After evacuation I felt better in the cramp. The pain vanished by evening. In the night I had a backache. It was a burning pain in the thoraco lumbar region. This pain was better by extending backwards-the stretch relieved the pain. I felt like applying balm, but I refrained.
I realized I have developed a callosity on the tip of the first finger of my right hand. The right eye seemed to be developing a stye in the outer canthii of the lower lid with pain every time I blinked.
I developed a boil on the flexor aspect of the upper arm close to the axilla. The shortness of breath still continues without any specific modality, with this shortness I also feel a lump in the throat. I also feel a pain in the sternal bone on pressure. Backache still there.
Today I noticed that I have been feeling an empty all gone sensation in the stomach with a nausea that ends in the throat. But this has not affected my appetite.
There is a boil developing on the olecranon process of my left clavicle. It is painful with sharp knife like pains.
The neck aches again. The head feels heavy for the shoulders. It is difficult for me to carry my regular bag. I have to carry it like a baby, not on my shoulders or carrying in my hands. Eyes burn every evening.
Today I was fasting again. Mood was getting very hopeful in these days I realized. I think since Sunday. I was traveling by train and (unlike me) I started a conversation with strangers (co passengers). And when one of them asked me what I do I said, “I do nothing, I am a housewife”. I don’t know why I wanted to hide my identity as a homoeopath.
The neck is still hurting and the back too. But by morning the back gets better. Most complaints I feel are worst in the night. Today morning the nausea ended in a vomit. I could not retain the tea. The nausea was there till 5p.m. that is the time I ate my meal. Thereafter I slept from 6 till 7. The sleep was very deep and I woke when the telephone ring awakened me. I felt as sudden lack of power as I woke up-no power all over.
These days I also realized that I sit for minutes doing nothing, nothing in fact-no thinking too. I am not lost, but I am just sitting still. It is a state of no activity-in body and mind!
In the preparation of the pilgrim I was not aware of what was happening. But I had some dreams that I do not recollect. By now I realized that I had developed an eczematous eruption on the skin over the medial aspect of the left middle finger extending from the nail bed to the middle inter-phalangeal joint. There was no itching at all.
From 26th June to the 15th July
During the trip I noticed that this eczema started to get better and while I write this (15th July) it has completely cleared. It is as if there is nothing now. I noticed that this got better after I had a dip in the ‘Taptkund’ (hot water spring-essentially Sulphur in it) at ‘Yamnotri’ (the origin of the holy river ‘Yamuna’ that starts from the Himalayas) on the 2nd July.
I had three dreams during the trip…
On the 4th July…
* I was coming home from somewhere and I had to attend a conference where all homoeopaths from world over were put up in a big, huge house. It was a dormitory accommodation. While entering the building I meet my friend Katka, I tell her I will put my bags and come and see you soon. But while searching for my room my bag gets thrown around and it breaks, all my clothes get scattered and I am trying to arrange them in the bag and now they do not fit in the space available. I somehow manage with difficulty. I am searching for the room but I get lost. Everything seems like chaos! I could not find the room, I could not meet Katka, I could not arrange the bag and I feel chaotic and lost in the vastness of this house.
On the night of 7th-8th July when I was at ‘Kedarnath’ (the temple of Lord Shiva) and in the morning I had to go early (at 5 a.m.) for the pooja…
* I see my mother and me walking towards my clinic. The feeling is that that both my brothers are dead. She decides not to come and goes back home. I come to my clinic and see everything under renovation. The tiles of the floor half done, the walls being painted and a lot of patients sitting the waiting room waiting to be attended by the locum doctor. I announce that I won’t be available for a while. I feel lonely, left alone in this world without anyone. The feeling is that my sister in law with my nephews will decide to go away to her maiden house, now that she is a widow. I am all alone in this world without the protection of my brothers. I wake up weeping.
In the train while coming back on the 13th July…
*I dream that I am watching a photo-frame hanging on the wall given to me by my friend. It had three rats with large front teeth (incisors) arranged in a triangle around a flower with their mouths meeting in the center of the triangle where lies the flower. It looks a bit scary. While I am watching I feel ‘what if they come alive?’ and to my surprise in the next scene I see that I am trying to lay a trap to drive away these wild rats out of the house which looks like a studio apartment. There are no floor tiles but only rough cement surfacing on the floor. I am closing all the windows and leaving just the door open for them to leave. I put all the properties of the house above the ground. I am scared that they will bite into my body but it is also important to drive them out of the house.
I came home in the morning of 14th. While I was removing the covers from the bed I saw the feaces (small balls) of the rat on the bed. I went into the kitchen where I saw the edges of the newspaper covering the utensils for use eaten at the edges by a rat. With a little fear in me I told my family that I see signs of a rat/s as a guest in our house. (The housekeeper must have left the windows open by mistake when she came to clean the house before our arrival.) This brought alive the dream in my mind. We laid a trap in the night but there was no rat in the mousetrap and no other signs of his presence in the morning.
In the physicals…
1. Three days in a row- 29th to 1st July I bit my cheeks in the left side while eating.
2. I had desquamation of the skin of the forehead (from 1st to the 6th July).
3. I developed pimples in the left nostril (from 4th to the 12th July).
4. I did not feel tired at all despite a hectic schedule. I was fresh all the time in the body.
5. I have developed pain in the left ankle and the left knee. The pain in the left knee
is aggravated squatting .The type of pain in the ankle and the knee is sudden, sharp and pinching. I feel what if it is gout? The pain is not aggravated walking…no other modality.
I also noticed one thing during the pilgrim I never told anyone that I was a doctor. If I introspect, the reason was to avoid unnecessary questions from people for remedies for their ailments-‘the Quickies’! I wanted to avoid the explanations that I had to give to people about case taking and the homoeopathic approach every time I said I was a homoeopath. Although I gave first aid to two pilgrims during the trip (when I saw they needed it, I said I was a doctor and could help them if they accepted it.) I also requested my brothers not to proclaim to everyone that I was a doctor unless they were really inquisitive. I also did not want to lie.
The days went by as a routine after the 15th July. I noticed nothing new and different.
(25-year homoeopath, her constitution not known. She had participated in the proving of the Tiger’s urine and this was her second proving. She is very much fond of surgery so assists a Cardio Thoracic surgeon from morning to evening and practices homoeopathy in the evening. I met her first when my mother was operated on her heart by this surgeon. I saw her very much dedicated and sincere in her work. She is very lively and talkative.)
Verbatim as given in writing…
Dose taken on 18. 06.04 in the night at 10.30 p.m.
Early morning at 2 a.m. sudden onset of throat pain, left pharyngeal wall. A lumpy feeling that came on empty swallowing and better by drinking warm water; pain in touching the throat from outside, with sneezing and nasal discharge-whitish. This lasted for one day only.
I also had increased frequency of urination-2 times in the night and 7 times during the day.
Boil on the left breast 1cm x 1cm, below the nipple in the inferior quadrant, sudden onset, painful, slight pus discharge. I noticed in the evening. It disappeared on plucking it.
Leucorrhoea-profuse, thick and albuminous with sensation of wetness in the vagina (since 19th it started), non-offensive, not staining.
All the three days I had a desire for rice- fried/seasoned/mutton pulao (rice).
(Accident: She had sent to me these handwritten notes by courier. But I have still not received them till date. We lost them. She got them delivered to me through a common friend.)
In the last few days I developed acne on my face, more on the forehead. They were pustular.
There has been profuse sweating, non offensive, non-delible. The sweat on the face is oily and greasy. I have to wash my face 5-6 times daily. Even after a bath I feel oily I the face.
I had earache for one day, right ear. There was no cold no cough with the ear pain. It was a dull ache.
This week I developed a boil on the right side on the chest, not the breast, it was non pustular, small red and fiery. The next morning it started to subside.
The desire for rice has gone.
I got ‘pissed off’ (angry) on my family when my grand mother got ill. I felt all the responsibilities are ‘thrusted’ on me! I felt no one is there to shoulder them. I felt only I am doing anything. I need to be helped by them. They waited for me to get her admitted. This at least they can do. It can be done by anybody. This time I created a tantrum while she was to be admitted. Finally my mother had to tell me to behave myself. I feel that I am not capable of taking responsibility. If they did this much, it would be a little less work.
I had one dream…
“ I see a small snake in the water tank with other inconspicuous fishes. On its tip at the face end it had a sharp projection. It keeps hitting on the lid of the tank-as if trying to open it. After several attempts it manages to open the lid and comes out. It comes out of the tank and starts to follow me. It is running after me. My grand mother tries to hit it with a stick but it runs away. It hides behind the mattress on the bed and tells me ‘main tujhe chodunga nahin’ (‘I won’t leave you’)”
In the dream I feel ‘surprised’ as to how this ‘chintu’ (tiny little inconspicuous thing) manage to open the thick lid of the glass tank.
I got my periods two days earlier. This time they were very, very, very, very painful. The bleeding started at 9 a.m. without pain and by 9.30 thee pain started. By 10.30 the pain was so sever that everyone could see it on my face. I had to come home. I had nausea with the pain all the way back home. I vomited everything. I took a hot water bag on the abdomen and went to lie down in bed. Never in my life I have vomited during menses.
In the evening I hired a rickshaw to go to the hospital. The driver asked me while I was getting down if I were a doctor in this hospital. I said, “No, I am not. I have come here to visit a patient” I hid my identity that I was a doctor. I don’t know why?
I had one more horrible dream about a patient who is on bed 2/18 in the I.C.U…
“In the hospital this patient is on bed no 2/15 and was operated on the heart. In the dream I see him not feeling well. Sir says to get the wheel chair or the deathbed and he is shifted on it and mobilize him.”
In reality this patient already got better and went home. But the next morning a woman who was operated and was on this bed 2/15 was to be transferred to the primary care out of the I.C.U. She was being transferred to the ward on the wheel chair and suddenly she collapsed and died. It was the same sequence as in the dream but with a different patient. I felt did I see it before it happened?
I also had throat pain with rawness. It was a sensation as if scraped from inside on swallowing with greenish phlegm, and pain radiating to the right ear.
I feel I pass more urine, profuse urine. I have to wake up in the night to pass urine.
I had one more dream in which I saw you. I don’t know if it was my dream or my imagination. I see that…
“ We are sitting facing each other across a table. I am telling you my proving symptoms and suddenly your eyes turn bluish stone like. They are shining. They become big and converge to become one. Now you have only on eye in the middle. You look dreadful. But I am not afraid. I only think that you are making me an ‘MTV Bakra’*
*In this programme there is a hidden camera and one person is targeted (Bakra) and made a fool of. It is similar to “Just for Laughs” program.
I again got a pimple on the right breast.
I have been getting a lot of dreams. One I remember, in it I was an ‘Aatma’ (spirit) and I was standing in a group with a lot of people and I am not aware that I am an Aatma; someone makes me aware that I am one. It means that I am dead. I also have been seeing a lot of dying scenes. I saw a dead puppy, and a dead rat.
I had a spotty pain in the right arm, very tender to touch.
I have fighting a lot with my sister and my mother. My mood is horrible. I have no fights as such and after the fights I didn’t even go to patch up. I did not talk to my sister for 4 days. I felt ‘go to hell, why should I go to patch up?’
I have also been making a lot of mistakes in writing. I had to write ‘Bombay’ and I wrote ‘Dombay’. Many such mistakes in writing and in speaking too.
I had thought that it had all stopped but the other day when I SMS you I got urticaria since morning. It got aggravated after bathing. It got better but in the evening it was worse between 3-4. The next day it again got worse in the morning on waking up, it got worse after bathing. Than in the evening I felt ice application would help and it relieved immediately. This lasted for 7 days and than it was better.
I keep having dreams of …
*‘Aatma’. I see my mother floating in the air like a spirit.
These are not my dreams. I also had one strange dream-sexual…
* There is this uncle (whom I respect very much) wanted to have oral sex with me. My grandmother is also there in the room. She expects me to say a yes. I keep saying a no but than I give in to the demand. Suddenly I feel what am I doing?
I also noticed a spotty pain; it is tender in this spot that is over the right deltoid. It was for 3-4 days.
(A 31-year female homoeopath. She receives Calc-brom as her constitution from her homoeopath. She is married with a child aged 4. Since the marriage she has stopped to practice as her husband had a traveling job. Her parents always wanted her to continue work but she could not gather any courage to take permission from her in laws and her husband. She had already reconciled with this fact until this proving…)
I took the dose on the morning of 14th July.
“ When you contacted me for the proving I felt I wanted to do it. I told my husband that I am doing I proving. I did not feel that I need to take his consent, I just informed him. I never was in two minds like always-should I ask him permission, ask him for a yes or no to do it, take his opinion whether to do it or not. I took the dose and I told him that I am participating in the proving with you!
He said a no and I said whether you say a no or a yes, I will be doing it. I have already taken the dose. He also did not say anything and there were no issues.
Now I can easily leave my son (4 years) with my mother in law everyday. I would normally feel how will she manage, she is old and felt guilty. Now I feel he is 4 and he can manage on his own, she just has to be around and it is not going to stress he. I could reason this without any guilt feelings.
Every time my mother in law would ask me to drop her somewhere by car I could not say a no. I would feel pity, guilty telling her a no. This time I said a ‘no’ without feeling bad.
I have developed a pain in the right foot from the 17th June with swelling of the great toe. I don’t know why there was pain and a little redness too. I had no injury too.
On the 18th my moods were very depressed. I felt a constant feeling of boredom. I did not know what I wanted. I feel sometimes like this before menses, but I was not even due for them.
On the 19th moods were normal, no pain in the foot.
I dream but I do not remember them.
On the 22nd I had a dream…
* I was going somewhere with my husband. It was a crowded place. There were some boys and girls. It seemed like a college place. They misbehave, or pass some comment on the principal. I tell him not to tell the names of these students to the principal, because if us their lives / future will be spoiled if they are rusticated by the principal. He does not tell their names and some students are listening our conversation. When we come out they shake hands with us and are happy.
In this dream my husband listens to me (in reality I am the way I am the way he wants!)
I keep feeling that I have no value. I must get independent. I must be independent enough to decide what I want to wear (clothes), what I want to shop, what I must do in life. I never decide, everything is according to his choice. I also have a lot of arguments with him these days. I used to do it before too but now there is anger –as a feeling within and also demonstrated.
The other day while I was working in the kitchen he came to help me saying come I will help you cut vegetables and peel potatoes. I said ‘No’, sternly with anger. I said ‘I don’t need help for these minor things, I need your support for other things’. Here what I meant was getting independent. I don’t want to depend on anybody.
I feel that I don’t just get time for myself, for what I want to do, to do what I am capable of, to do what I am qualified for. I am only doing things for my husband and my son and I don’t get time for myself. I don’t mean that I will neglect house but as a doctor I need to put my qualifications to use, and certain odd jobs that I am doing can be done by others (without qualifications, I mean employ servants). They like it when others daughter in laws are working and pursuing a career. But when it comes to their daughter in law they don’t like he going out!
A lot of times I was grumbling and irritated and told everyone to ‘mind your own business’.
I have been thinking to join someone to get update with the advancements in medicine and homoeopathy. I have left it since the last 6 years. I keep feeling that now my son will go to school from 9 to 4, what will I do at home? I must start working with someone. I know they will not like it but eventually they will get used to it. (Smiles!) It is not that I want to avoid or run away from housework, but it is the feeling to put my qualifications and intellectual capabilities to good use!
I feel I have become strong…(thinks) no, assertive is the right word!
Physicals…the sweat smelled. It was not offensive but some sort of a sweaty smell. My son said mom you smell. It was for 4 days and than it got better.
Hunger increased for spicy food and sweets. I feel like having something sweet in my mouth. I ate a lot of cream biscuits, bourbon biscuits and other Indian sweets. My regular onion eating is gone down (I used to love onions and garlic. I ate everyday one raw onion before, now I don’t)
(A male prover 39 years successful in his own business. He had participated in the Rudraksh proving with me. His constitution is unknown to me. )
I have not maintained day-to-day account of the notes but I will tell you what changes I have noticed in myself. I have become very regular and consistent with all my responsibilities towards myself. I was always the kind who would do something with enthusiasm for few days and than forget about it totally. But since the last 3 weeks I am daily doing my Yoga exercises early in the morning. However late I have slept in the night I wake up and do the exercises and only than start my day. I feel committed to myself.
I always felt “I don’t know how my business is running, it is all God’s grace, I have never been regular in work but everything goes well. I go whenever I felt like” but now I feel I must do it with commitment, fix a time for my attendance in the office. I always used to wonder how I became such a good professional. Nowadays I feel I am good in my work and I do it well and that is why everything is going well. I do feel bored when alone but than some one comes along and time passes well.
Even with people I feel I can recognize their intentions. For me everyone was good. Even if somebody did harm to me I would think his point of view and give “benefit of doubt”. The next time I would meet him I would have forgotten about the incidence. Now I can see through the intentions of people. I would always feel that the opposite person is right but now I can understand without getting overwhelmed by them. The other day I realized the intention behind my friend telling me something and I did not say anything, I did not divulge some information. He was not straight enough to ask me directly, so I was not straight with him too.
These days I have decided not to help everyone. I help only if I am asked to help. I also don’t go out of my way to help others. I only help what is within my capacity. I refuse for donations that I used to give freely (without thinking whether they really deserve or not?).
I also bought a laptop. I wanted it with the previous old programmes (Windows 98 and not XP and these days all are with XP). This time I did not pay him the full amount. I said come to my office show me that everything is working well, operate all the ports in my clinic and than I will pay you the full amount. He had to come and spend two hours. I found out two problems, got it corrected and than restarted it, verified the functions and than paid him. I felt I am learning the ways of life. Once they get the money and the laptop is yours they do not attend to you well with the same enthusiasm. Normally I would believe in his word and than get irritated that they are not professional and crib afterwards. I hope this lasts… (laughing)! (In the Rudraksh proving I was happy after the dream where I accept my mother’s death, I learnt to accept that mothers could also die. I was before that not able to think my life without her.)
But this itching when in company irritates me. I used to have it before. It has come back, these are eruptions on the back side (dorsum) of the hand and they itch. It looks bad. I feel better by washing in water, just wetting it. I also have them on my feet. I remove my shoes and they start to itch. I feel it looks bad especially when I am writing on the desk it can be seen by others. I cannot hide it.
But these days I feel people find me more charming. Thrice I have received this compliment.
I get negative thoughts in the morning on waking up. I feel always I cannot do it. I don’t feel like waking up. I feel tired and want to sleep still. I get thoughts about this work I won’t be able to do. This project will not come through. Than I feel confident about myself. The day goes well.
I love to eat only fruits in the evening. I skip the meal and eat only fruits, the ones in season…mangoes, peaches, pears, plums and bananas. In the mornings for breakfast I feel like having bread and butter these days instead of roti’s.
My sweat in the armpits smells these days.
I had one dream that I remember the others are long about day-to-day events but I just do not remember. There has not been a single night without a dream but I don’t remember them. This dream that I remember…
* I see me in the shop of my grandfather and suddenly there are riots outside. I try to pull down the shutters from inside to protect myself. But I am not able to latch it in time and the rioters try to come in. To protect myself I get bricks and am hitting them. I hit them in a way being careful that they are not killed. I keep hitting them with bricks feeling I don’t want to hit them but I have to because I have to protect myself. If I don’t hit than I will be no more. And I manage to get out of this scene unhurt and without killing anybody.
I get a lot of dreams but I don’t remember them.
Do you also feel I look charming?
(I would agree there was an unusual glow on his face. He has always had a pleasant personality, but there was something unusual about him. His wife (a homoeopath) was happy with the change in him. She only hoped that it lasted!)
The intelligence of the Shiitake …
The qualitative synthesis of the Shiitake…
I would like to quote here what Osho says…
“ There is a lot of difference between intellect and intelligence. Intellect is logical; intelligence is paradoxical. Intellect is analytical; intelligence is synthetical. Intellect divides, cuts into pieces to understand a thing. Science is based on intellect, dissection, division, and analysis. Intelligence joins things together, makes a whole out of parts- because this is one of the greatest understanding:
that the part exists through the whole , not vice versa.
And the whole is not just the sum of the parts; it is more than the parts.
For example, you can have a rose flower, and you can go to a scientist, to a logician. You can ask him, “I want to understand this rose flower”. What will he do? He will dissect it; he will separate all the elements that are making it a flower. When you go next you will find the flower gone. Instead of the flower there will be a few labeled bottles. The elements have been separated, but one thing is certain -there will not be any bottle on which will be the label ‘beauty’!
Intellect dissects, analyzes. It is the instrument of science. Intelligence is the instrument of spirituality; it joins together. Hence the greatest science of spirituality we have called Yoga (Yuj is union). Yoga means the methodology to join. Yoga means to put things together. God is the greatest totality; all things put together. God is not a person. God is a presence, the presence when the total is functioning in a great harmony-the trees and the birds and the earth and the stars and the moon and the sun and the rivers and the oceans- all together. If you dissect you will never find God. Dissect a man; you cannot find the presence that was making him alive. Dissect the world; you cannot find the presence that is God.
Intelligence is the method to join things together. An intelligent person is very synthetical. He always looks for a higher whole, because the meaning is always in the higher whole. He always looks for something higher in which the lower is dissolved and functions as a part, functions as a whole in the harmony of the whole, gives its own contribution to the orchestra of the whole but is not separate from it. Intelligence moves upwards, intellect moves downward. Intellect goes to the cause; intelligence goes to the goal.”
Meanwhile I read Paulo Rosenbaum (Brazil) (Links) …
“Homoeopaths deal with fragments that do not make sense as wholes; provings are compilations of many different individuals’ experiences. Most of these fragments are mere links of some lost unity; therefore we must create a qualitative synthesis in order to make the technique operative.”
Responsibility/ No Responsibility- Neck, Shoulders, soles
• I had no responsibility of taking the decision’ and this ‘would free me of the guilt I would have otherwise had if I had to take this decision.
• I do nothing, I am a housewife”. I don’t know why I wanted to hide my identity as a homoeopath.
• I felt all the responsibilities are ‘thrusted’ on me! I felt no one is there to shoulder them. I felt only I am doing anything.
• I feel that I am not capable of taking responsibility.
• I sit for minutes doing nothing, nothing in fact-no thinking too. I am not lost, but I am just sitting still. It is a state of no activity-in body and mind!
• It is not that I want to avoid or run away from housework, but it is the feeling to put my qualifications and intellectual capabilities to good use!
• I have become very regular and consistent with all my responsibilities towards myself.
• I feel I am good in my work and I do it well and that is why everything is going well.
1. Painful callosity on the undersurface of the great toe of the left foot (the great toe area is the pressure bearing area in the sole-taking the responsibility of bearing the weight of the whole body of the organism)
2. It was as if the weight of the head was more than I could carry. I was conscious that I was carrying my head on my shoulders. The head feels heavy for the shoulders (an expression of too much responsibility.)
3. I realized I have developed a callosity on the tip of the first finger of my right hand.
• For any decision I say let us throw chits. I told her that we will decide while on the pilgrim by throwing two chits labeled ‘to go’ and ‘not to go’ at the foot of the lord and than you chose one.
• I never was in two minds like always-should I ask him permission, ask him for a yes or no to do it, take his opinion whether to do it or not. I took the dose and I told him that I am participating in the proving with you!
Confidence self / Assertiveness-Onions
• I told my husband that I am doing I proving. He said a no and I said whether you say a no or a yes, I will be doing it.
• I could not say a no, I would feel pity, guilty telling her a no. This time I said a ‘no’ without feeling bad.
• In this dream my husband listens to me (in reality I am the way I am the way he wants!)
• I must get independent. I must be independent enough to decide.
• I found out two problems, got it corrected and than restarted it, verified the functions and than paid him.
• I feel people find me more charming.
• Than I told myself “we have to set trends, whatever we wear will be fashion for us!” after this I could walk comfortably without any embarrassment on the streets.
Physical representation: My regular onion eating is gone down (I used to love onions and garlic. I ate everyday one raw onion before, now I don’t.)
Author: This I classify as and in under confidence as I see food modalities in the totality. Onions and Garlic are classified in Ayurveda as ‘Tamas’ or Tamasic food. These kinds of food increase the aggression in the system. The non-attraction to the same in this prover who is now assertive is proof enough that the system does not need outside help to pep up its confidence! An assertive person needs no aggression!
Fight desire to/ Aggression-Boils, Abscesses, Throat affections of
(This is put as a theme after being highlighted by Frans)
• This time I created a tantrum.
• I got ‘pissed off’ (angry) on my family.
• I was grumbling and irritated and told everyone to ‘mind your own business’.
• I also have a lot of arguments with him these days. I used to do it before too but now there is anger –as a feeling within and also demonstrated.
• I said ‘No’, sternly with anger.
• Dream: To protect myself I get bricks and am hitting them. I hit them in a way being careful that they are not killed. I keep hitting them with bricks feeling I don’t want to hit them but I have to because I have to protect myself. If I don’t hit than I will be no more.
• I would always feel that the opposite person is right but now I can understand without getting overwhelmed by them.
• I refuse for donations that I used to give freely.
• Dream: Skull of Hyenas.
• Dream: (three rats with large front teeth (incisors)) I am scared that they will bite into my body but it is also important to drive them out of the house.
Physical representation: Having pustular boils also is an expression of aggression, the expression of the fighting capacity (over fighting=pus) of the gross mind (the body.) Boil on the flexor aspect of the upper arm close to the axilla/ Boil developing on the olecranon process of my left clavicle/ Pimples in the left nostril/ Boil on the left breast 1cm x 1cm, below the nipple in the inferior quadrant, sudden onset, painful, slight pus discharge/ Acne on my face, more on the forehead. They were pustular.
Sphere of Action: Throat. It is an expression of verbal communication-voice, “being able to voice one’s opinion” is one phrase that expresses the body-mind unit.
Sensitivity, Society- Skin affections of
In these provers the sequence of narration of different symptoms/ weaving of different symptoms mean much more than what the words express. Within the sequence lies another story…
*Prover 1: Dream: I had a feeling that they were searching for me. But I did not want to meet them; I was trying to avoid them, as I did not feel like talking to them.
* Prover 3: I feel I have become strong…(thinks) no, assertive is the right word!
Physicals…the sweat smelled. It was not offensive but some sort of a sweaty smell. My son said mom you smell. It was for 4 days and than it got better.
* Prover 4: But this itching when in company irritates me. I used to have it before. It has come back, these are eruptions on the back side (dorsum) of the hand and they itch. It looks bad. I feel it looks bad especially when I am writing on the desk it can be seen by others. I cannot hide it.
But these days I feel people find me more charming. Thrice I have received this compliment.
My sweat in the armpits smells these days.
* Prover 2: I also had increased frequency of urination-2 times in the night and 7 times during the day.
All the three days I had a desire for rice- fried/seasoned/mutton pulao (rice).
Author: In Chinese medicine Rice helps in replenishing the energies of the kidneys that has to do with relationship with the outside.
Sphere of action: Skin is the largest human organ. It fulfills many functions of which one is ‘separation and protection’ (the others are respiration, perspiration, temperature regulation, expression, contact.)
Company/ Alone- Skin affections of
• Dream: I had a feeling that they were searching for me. But I did not want to meet them; I was trying to avoid them, as I did not feel like talking to them.
• Dream: I could not meet Katka, I could not arrange the bag and I feel chaotic and lost in the vastness of this house.
• Dream: I am all-alone in this world without the protection of my brothers. I wake up weeping.
• I don’t get time for myself.
• I do feel bored when alone but than some one comes along and time passes well.
• But these days I feel people find me more charming. Thrice I have received this compliment.
Skin, eruptions, itching: ‘But this itching when in company irritates me’.
Menses is an expression of female feminity, and self- surrender is a central quality of female feminity. In Shiitake we see the following symptoms in the female sphere…
* I had pain and cramps with rectal tenesmus. Each time I got the cramp I had to crap (evacuate), the stools were crumbling. After evacuation I felt better in the cramp.
* This time they were very, very, very, very painful. The bleeding started at 9 a.m. without pain and by 9.30 thee pain started. By 10.30 the pain was so severe that everyone could see it on my face. I had to come home. I had nausea with the pain all the way back home. I vomited everything.(Prover 2)
* I felt ‘go to hell, why should I go to patch up?’(Prover 2)
The process of self-surrender involves a willingness to sacrifice a part of one’s ego. The process of menstruation, we must not overlook, is also an expression of the female’s sexual life. Menses is the throwing off of the dead endometrium. Self-surrender is also a mini death of the ego.
What is seen in the proving is a development of the ego, confidence, and assertion-a desire to be independent, and wanting other’s to mind their own business. And the menstrual symptoms are the bodily expression of the same mini death of the ego.
We see the same theme in the male prover as in the symptom…
‘These days I have decided not to help everyone. I help only if I am asked to help. I also don’t go out of my way to help others. I only help what is within my capacity. I refuse for donations that I used to give freely (without thinking whether they really deserve or not?)’.